meish

this blog is usually reserved for happy things

i don't like to whine and complain on the internet, but maybe its needed occasionally

i am not that great with words, but this picture sums up my feelings pretty well.

yes i should think of all my blessings, but i don't want to right now

yes i should get my grumpy butt to bed, but instead i act like child who tries to stay up even if they are exhausted and will most likely fall asleep on the living room floor. (why do kids/I do that?)

why am i so indecisive, stubborn, prideful and try and push away my hubby when he is only trying to help?

why do i cry over tiny things and can't over things that i really should? why the freak am i writing this all on the Internet?

and WHY did have i let the lady's convo i over heard on the shuttle to Idaho last week bother me so much? It's her life and marriage and boyfriendS, why do i care? i guess i don't, its just the principle. Combined with the U.S divorce rate and the worlds worst movie EVER "Eat Pray Love" okay not worst movie ever i did enjoy the traveling part but the message seriously horrible/worst. okay this tangent about how the world disregards something as great as marriage has nothing to do with anything. sorry back to my whining...

i hate that friends grow apart

i hate feeling incompetent

i hate hearing bad news AND watching the "news" it's scary/depressing

okay i scratched the surface, don't expect to see a post like this for a long long time.

d-day (d for dreaded)

Highlights of our week:

Tuesday packed up the apt, went to Ryans Mom's or dinner

Wednesday finished packing celebrating my mom's b-day

Thursday moved all our stuff into a storage unit, lunch with the Models, dinner with Ry's dad

Friday cleaning, date night with Ryans highs school buddy, saw V-day the movie LOVED IT

Saturday celebrated Valentines Day with my eternal buddy, it was a happy day

Sunday went to our new little niece Azylnn's baby blessing spent the day with Ryan's family and then had a adorable/yummy valentines dinner with my parents and grandma (my momma is the best) hung out with the models and got to see my got roomie Stephanie who is home from her mission!

Monday Breakfast with Ryan's mom and all of the siblings the niece and nephew. Moved all my clothes and stuff to my parents. Went to dinner with my parents and brother.

Tuesday/the dreaded day/today

It was a great week leading up to the dreaded day with lots of time with my boy and our friends and family! I took Ryan to the airport at 5:30 a.m. cried said good bye and cried some more. Ryan just landed in Jacksonville and randomly met another mormon on the plane who is also in training at, this nice guy is letting Ryan ride with him to the training center so now ryan does not have to wait 4 hours for the shuttle. yay!

Ryan will be living in Georgia for the next 4 1/2 months for training and i don't get to go :(. So i will be here in Idaho Falls living with the family which will really help the loneliness. i THINK i can do this, at least I hope.

On a completely random note, before Ryan left i downloaded all of his pictures from his phone to my computer, there were some funny one but these two below had to be the funniest. I had forgotten all about them so I had to share.

This is last summer, we started playing tennis a lot and playing boys vs. girls because it was pretty evenly matched. Allyx and I were SURE we had the next game in the bag so we decided to make a bet so that we could have snow cones after. The boys however did not want snow cones they wanted us to have to lick their armpits if we lost. we lost. ewww.

again ewww!!!

Here are some pics of our FIRST niece! Azylnn Evans, she is a doll!